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Friday, April 30, 2010

damn hot weather..
& rain din even help a single bit to cool it off... zzz...

also seriously dunno wat happen to me these days..
first diarrhea then fever then now diarrhea =.="
but e food i ate realli veri normal leh.. sian 1/2


then i got tempted with more shopping..
John Little jus sent me a brochure for their cardmember preview sale next week..
not onli that, i alr got a fren in USA and another going Taiwan soon..
both alr asked me wat to buy & i hav no idea cos hav been shopping quite a bit recently..
hmm perhaps getting OPI or VS? =P
then taiwan e clothes n shoes r realli cheap lah but cant realli ask fren to help u buy leh..


then saw on e news that jetstar flying to Japan!! yay~
wonder how cheap will e tix be?
n maybe next time can also go taipei shop for a few days first before heading back to spore since e flight will be transiting at taipei =P


& world cup issue is still not resolved?!?
heard dunno how mani times tt e telco com hav clinched e deal liao but all turns out to be untrue.. diaoz..
shd i blame e reporters for giving e false alarm?
& where is e efficiency tt spore is well known to be man??
anyway with e internet so advanced nowadays i dun think e net savvy ppl with bother ba..
cos can watch online for free, jus tt perhaps e resolution is not as great..


lastly, read tt e greece issue is still in tatters..
& it is resulting in some domino effect..
must admit tt i din realli read up on e Eurozone
but e seriousness of e prob kinda amazes me..
cos which country dun hav public debt??
even spore who is known for her prudent measures also got 20-30% of GDP as debt..
then Japan which has more than 200% GDP as debt is still surviving okay
how come its e European countries tt are affected most?
is e Euro the catalyst??
Wednesday, April 28, 2010

so aliens do exist afterall??
does it also mean tt e gahmen ard e world has been deceiving e ppl over e yrs?
now it brings e ques of how much more tt we do not know??
Tuesday, April 27, 2010

didi went to tekong liao..
until now we haven play a game of MJ.. pai seh..
will try to organise one aft 13 May k?

& jus when im starting to miss ktv, someone organise one liao.. hehe..
but dunno most of those who are attending.. hmmm..

then these days FB lag like siao.. sianz..
& i find myself cant stop playing e games.. jialat..
well like wat one of my fren say, tts wat makes FB so popular
& i also like to comment on others status update but somehow when it comes to myself, i dun realli wanna do status update n upload photos..
dunno why..
somehow still prefer blog..
even though both are online tools, guess blog gives me this feeling of more privacy ba..
& realise its my blog 4th anniversary liao.. lolz
will continue to blog as long as i can cos its an avenue for me to practise my writing skills and also to air my views/thought, let my emotions flow instead of bottling up..
Monday, April 26, 2010

Musical Monday





爱情之所以为爱情
梁静茹



买CD 把你的声音丢在角落
看电影 到结局总是配角的错
你要的故事 让你去说
我要的生活 我好好过

写日记 写不出是谁的感受
夜空里 每个人占有一个星座
你到底懂不懂 我只要一点温热的触碰

你到底懂不懂
有些话 并不是 一定要说

你总说爱情之所以为爱情 是用来挥霍
你总是漫不在乎 当我看著自己的稀薄
你编织的感觉难以捉摸
你比我的梦境还困惑

我看见爱情之所以为爱情 谁都在挥霍
我想的天长地久 也许只是时间的荒谬
我沉迷的感动与你不同
我的了解让我自由

一场雨 有时候下得不是时候
就像你 说难过不是真的难过
你到底懂不懂 我只要一个安稳的等候

你到底懂不懂
想你想得好像 空气都停了

你总说爱情之所以为爱情 是用来挥霍
你总是漫不在乎 当我看著自己的稀薄
你编织的感觉难以捉摸
你比我的梦境还困惑

我看见爱情之所以为爱情 谁都在挥霍
我想的天长地久 也许只是时间的荒谬
我沉迷的感动与你不同
我的了解让我自由

你总说爱情之所以为爱情 是用来挥霍
你总是漫不在乎 当我看著自己的稀薄
你编织的感觉难以捉摸
你比我的梦境还困惑

我看见爱情之所以为爱情 谁都在挥霍
我想的天长地久 也许只是时间的荒谬
我沉迷的感动与你不同
我的了解让我自由

我沉迷的感动与你不同
我的了解让我自由
Saturday, April 24, 2010

why is Motorola Milestone onli exclusive to Starhub?!? urrghhh..

tts e onli phone i like apart from E72 and HTC HD mini..

shd i get a phone tt i dun realli like or shd i wait??



& seems like e weightage of MT in PSLE has created quite some response in both FB and forum..
some of my frens are even disillusioned by e announcement..
then MOE also got announced they are trying to refine e admission of top schools that favours those with strong MT abilities..
but i jus thinking how good can one be when e general standard is lowered considerably??

even though i consider my chinese standard to be good and to some of my frens, superb, i still think im no match for e taiwanese..
much less the Chinese in China..
i rem one essay written by a PRIMARY SCHOOL student alr 讓我汗顔 lor..

let's see how things goes ba..


then finally started watching 敗犬女王 on channel U..
one of e few times i catch a drama on TV..
quite good until now..
particularly like this 臺詞: 讓心感受一下, 就會知道他是不是那個人。。。
& 阮經天 is still as dashing!!
got looks, got height, got body.. =P
so trying to search for online sources..
but right now Tudou either something wrong or kena by e authorities liao *sob sob*
got any other recommended sites??
& hoping that e drama wont turn to be as lame as 命中注定我愛你

Food For Thought

命数

李永乐

客船钟声

  我坐的冷气巴士座位前一排,坐着一对祖孙,祖母大约60出头,孙子也就两三岁,还在牙牙学语,老祖母逗着他玩,小家伙很乐,一路上没一刻安静,满车都是他的活泼童稚声音。

  面对一个黄口小孩,你很难预测他(她)将来,会是智勇双全、造福人类的伟人,还是作奸犯科、荼毒生灵的奸人,或者像多数人那样,庸庸碌碌过一辈子。

  小孩日后可能长命百岁,福寿双全,享尽人世间的种种福报,说不定命途坎坷,一生落魄潦倒,事事不顺利,寂寞孤寡,天不假年,各种可能都有。

  命运是极其复杂的图腾,没有两个人雷同,这一头不会十全十美,另一头也不至于一无是处,当中既有先天的“定数”,更多却是后天的“变数”。“命运”有定数和变数,便可通过信念和努力改变。

  对于 “定数”也许有人不以为然,或者讥之为宿命观。其实所谓的先天性,某种古老说法是过去世“业力”的总称,它潜伏在“第八识”当中“与生俱来”,称之为无明。

  因为无明使我们迷惑,驱使身,口,意造业,称之为“行”。此造作产生将来的果报,所以“行”就是业报,伴随投胎轮回生死。

  生命则是名色(精神与物质)的复合体,“识”则是精神活动,当肉体不存在时,“识”继续以一种能量形态存在重新入胎。这个“第八识”与一般所说的“六识” (眼、耳、鼻、舌、身、意)并不相同。

  撇开比较“宗教”的部分,我们当知人在身心成长过程中,通过身、眼、耳、鼻、舌、意,不断接触外境,有了这个“触”之后,就可感受外界的事物,而生起苦受、乐受、不苦不乐受。

一旦有了受,就产生种种分别心与执著,渴望与贪爱喜欢的事物,不但想尽办法去争“取”,还希求将来获得更多,有人通过正途,有人不择手段,于是纷争与冲突不断,贪爱正是将来果报的因。

  在迷惑之中,无明、爱、取、受,不断生死流转,循环不息,形成种种我们所谓的“命运”,我们必须清楚认识到这一切,其实是内因和外缘的结合,外缘部分可以选择和改变,并非不可逆转。

  巴士很快到了终点站,那个活泼的小男孩,和祖母手拉手下车前,还回过头来向我挥手,我也还以一个微笑,以及祈望幼苗成长的祝福。
Thursday, April 22, 2010

had one of e weirdest dream in a while..

& i dun think its 日有所思, 夜有所夢 this time round..
Wednesday, April 21, 2010

realise its been more than a month since i went Bintan but until now i haven upload e Bintan photos..
be it here or FB..
guess cos its too mani + laziness..
think forget it..
100++ photos also dunno upload until when..
e Taiwan photos alr veri good experience liao


anyway 3 news caught my eye today..


1st its the supposedly prototype iphone 4GS..
frankly speaking, the exterior looks so dull..
dun realli understand why it cause such a big stir..
perhaps im realli not a fan of Apple =P


next its e transport fare..
seriously dunno e reporter sugarcoating or e PTC misleading..
cos upon further reading, e fare actualli increase!! *the*
& still dare to say 2/3 pay lesser fare..
also in e first place got 2/3 of e passengers make a transfer meh?
perhaps they dun dare to say fare is increasing as e economy is jus recovering? think 2002...


finally its with regard to the proposed downward adjustment of e weightage of MT in PSLE..
is it jus me or is MOE giving in to some kind of pressure?
on e one hand, saying chinese is impt to connect with china, hence we hav e urgent nid to groom bi-cultural ppl to act as e connecting bridge..
then now this?

PSLE leh, where all students built their foundation..
if even in PSLE e weightage is reduced, wat will e parents n student perceive?

me n some frens were already mentioning that somehow e youngsters (born in 1990s) these days already dun hav a good grasp of Chinese liao n its also not as if their Eng is zai..
surely e MOE shd hav better foresight than me n din wan S'pore to realli become a Singlish society?
then why still even float out this thought?!

yes, one may argue tt times hav changed and now e majority of students speak English at home..
BUT how mani actualli speak ENGLISH and not SINGLISH at home?!?

i alr lost count on e num of occasions tt i cling at e deplorable std of english spoken by parents to their kids..
i cant help but wonder why dun they speak Mandarin instead.
surely e child can benefit more?
& if tt is called eng then i seriously thinking of migrating to other places if i hav kids later on in life liao..
cant realli imagine e youngsters now who become grown up later on to teach my future kids (if any) on language

even at forum, some students also mention tt MOE shdn't jus decrease e std jus as to cater to e few who experience difficulty..
cos making something easier wont make a person who dislike it to like it more..
& furthermore, e rest of e students lost out from having e chance to learning more

realli hope MOE will bother to listen from e horses mouth before any decision..
Monday, April 19, 2010

circle line new stations open le!
finally now shorter journey for me if i wanna go old airport road food centre liao! lolz

now that there are more train stations at city hall area, is it better to take circle line to go Suntec/Esplanade/National Lib or still take to city hall then walk?

one thing i dun like abt transfer is e dist tt i nid to walk between platforms and e additional waiting time..

any kind soul who try out le then tell me? =P


one more thing, until now i still dunno whether to buy Youth Olympic tix!
wanna buy since its first launch but lazy me always procrastinate..
but dunno which sport event to buy leh..
any recommendation and khaki tt can accompany me?


finally guess news of e week shd be e iceland volcano liao..
seems like my geo knowledge not tt qiang afterall..
cos i din know Iceland got so mani volcanoes.. onli know e Ring of Fire..
& also thought that Iceland quite isolated from the continental Europe
so is it situated nearer than i thought or e ash is too much or e wind too strong liao?

& luckily e volcanoes in Indonesia are not as power..
if not spore cfm dunno how mani times more cham than Europe now

Musical Monday

Sunday, April 18, 2010

Food For Thought

开始懂了 ——爱别离
漪心

人生是流动的,被马不停蹄的时间鞭策着,而我们在其中身不由己地患得患失。我们常陷于命运的迷雾之中而畏缩裹足,而当我们对此有所了悟,则是向前勇敢跨出的一大步。

开始懂了

  大学时期教补习时,我总是设法以最简单的方式解答数学问题。我最大的满足感是来自于学生恍然大悟时所发出的惊叹:“现在,我开始懂了!”

  求学期间,每当我遇到理不出头绪的统计学难题,最好的处理方式不是对着问题发呆,而是按捺浮躁的情绪,平心静气地尝试其他习题。我仍会耿耿于怀,心中记挂着无法得出答案的那道问题。过了一些时间,等我明白了相关的统计学原理之后,再次挑战上一次遇挫的题目,我竟可以轻而易举地破解谜底。

  香港武侠电影《东邪西毒:终极版》是导演王家卫花了3年打造的“新版”,旧版是1999年的《东邪西毒》。对于新旧两版的区别,相差了15年而再次负责摄影的杜可风回答得很直接:“当年我看不懂,现在懂了。”

  岁月是一个循循善诱的老师,让我们按部就班地在人生的课堂上勤恳学习。有时,其教学的手段可说是近乎严厉的。即使我们频频回首,仍回不到从前,亦无法以涂改液或橡皮擦掩盖或抹去人生的错误和污点。倘若早了一步,这堂课的题目就叫“错过”;若是晚了一步,遗留在课表上的只能是“遗憾”。

  为何有些领悟必须延宕至今日?为何有些答案只能在白发斑斑之时才揭晓?从前的“我还是不懂”到现在的“我开始懂了”,时间之河究竟蜿蜒了多远的路程,淹埋了多少辛酸事,并泅游了几双泪眼?

  朋友遇到挫折打击时,我只能鼓励她:倘若前方铺满荆棘,那是为了验证我们能否披荆斩棘,开创新天地;若老天调来风雨,那是为了考验我们能否风雨无阻,迎接有晴天。她感慨万分地坦露:“当我开始懂了某些人事,就表示我变得圆滑世故,或麻木残忍了。”我只能如此劝慰:“当我们开始懂了,并不是人事变得清晰明白,而是我们自此学会不在乎挑拨人心的楚河汉界,不计较对方的心最后倾向天平的哪一边,也不去分辨别人或自己所给予的究竟是真正的理由还是逃避的借口。”

  人生是流动的,被马不停蹄的时间鞭策着,而我们在其中身不由己地患得患失。我们常陷于命运的迷雾之中而畏缩裹足,而当我们对此有所了悟,则是向前勇敢跨出的一大步。有了人事的淬砺,有些问题可以在水到渠成时迎刃而解,有些谜底却只能埋藏于人生的深谷。对于许多事物,我仍是懵懵懂懂,而当我偶有见解时,朋友就取笑我:“哎呀,你难得开窍了哦!”

其实,这是因为刚巧在这里,刚好在这个时候,我拨开了人生的一层迷雾,开始透彻的懂了。

爱·别离

  两个星期后,我即将赴吉隆坡参加会议。我最近频向将同行的女同事确定航班归来的时间。同事得知我是为了要预先通知老公来接送,无奈地摇头:“哎呀,你又不是出远门,才去三四天,何必像个长不大的孩子似的,那么依赖或麻烦别人。”

  我理直气壮地抗议:“不是啦。既然不是别人,而是自己的老公,哪能将之定义为‘麻烦’呢!” 别离的度量单位不是时间的长短,而是牵念的深度。别离是短暂、长久或永远的,我们无从知晓,你的一声“再见”,你的挥手道别,你的转身离去,都无法在时空里定格,亦无法追溯或挽留。

  在《红楼梦》里,宝玉喜聚不喜散,黛玉却喜散不喜聚。两人观念不同,相同的是滚滚红尘里身不由己的命中布局 ——爱别离。爱别离是佛教所云的人生八苦之一,佛曰:“爱别离,怨憎会,撒手西归,全无是类。不过是满眼空花,一片虚幻。”

  我承认自己是执迷的。别离之所以令人痛苦,是因为两人即使分开了,仍无法将爱分隔。“爱”和“别离”这两者就如连体婴孩,爱得愈深,别离愈苦,无法只取其一,更无法自立而独活。

  去年,还未出发到赫尔辛基之前,我兴致勃勃地告知朋友我即将远行,并为这座陌生的城市附上诸多的标签:圣诞老人的故乡;Nokia手机设计的发源地;地处北纬约60度,世界最北边的首都……可是,无论身处在哪个城市,我心底清楚地明白,这是离开至爱的人最遥远的地方。除此之外,再多的附注也是惘然的,亦无法赋予感情的版图其他实质的地理意义。

  我们可以期许别离滋长爱,却无法祈求爱别离去。我们可以为别离提供各种理由,也可以因爱上或不爱而附加诸多原因。无论近在眼前,或远在千里,无论是爱着,或已经不爱了,我们终须离别。

  我还是执迷不悟的,只要还是爱着的,就不要别离,就应该在一起。只是人生不会因为我们的要与不要,喜或不喜,而把“别离”这一环节抽离,只让爱留下来。于是,我仍牵挂着自己的归期,还是坚持回来之后第一个要见到的是至爱的人。

  飞离赫尔辛基之际,我看到一个竖立的机场方位图表标示着“Reason to fly”。撇开它的字面意义,我将之另外诠释为“爱——别离的理由”。

于是,我开始懂了。纵然诸多人事都由不得自己作主,唯有爱没有归期。



轉載自聯合早報

會耿耿於懷是因爲太在乎還是忘不了?

家家有本難念的經。。。。

剪不斷,理還亂。。
Saturday, April 17, 2010

how come it can be jus as warm and humid as daytime when its e wee hours of e morning??!! zzzzzzzzzzzz...


stupid weather..
sorry sun, sporeans jus cant stop complaining.. lolz..



& realli hope my hair can grow longer faster so i can tie it into a decent length ponytail..

原來女人有時也不了解女人。。。。





也發覺有些事真的不要想太多
鑽牛角尖的源頭大概就是太豐富的想象力
讓心來決定, 跟著感覺走吧
Friday, April 16, 2010

these few days read too much bad news until dun feel like reading newspaper liao..

terrorist attack, political turmoil, mine field accident, plane crash, earthquakes


這真的是命, 逃也逃不掉, 避也避不了。。。


RIP to the deceased..
Wednesday, April 14, 2010

jia lat..
my throat getting painful again..

NOOOOOO........
Tuesday, April 13, 2010

in a state of disbelief..

was catching up with ying n we were talking abt our pri sch frens..
then somehow its to e topic of who's married among us..
& realise there's a num of gals who are married and/or hav kids at our age le..
married still okay, perhaps cos i alr numb liao..
but having kids alr?
OMG!!!
tt means is married at either 23 or 24, unless they too impatient lah.. =P

personal feel is that finding someone whom u love n loves u back is hard enuff..
but knowing/feeling that he is the one to spend e rest of ur life with at a mere age of 20/21/22?
or issit cos i haven met e one yet so i dun sense it n hence thinking its not realli possible?

anyway any r/s is a gamble lah..
must hav at least some faith + trust

however come to think of it, which matters isnt?

perhaps its make more complicated in terms of r/s cos tt's where u nid both hands to clap
Monday, April 12, 2010

Musical Monday

Saturday, April 10, 2010

Food For Thought

爱的怀疑

王嬿青

内外

  一个如此渴望爱的人,爱起来是令人窒息的,抱得越紧越恐惧失去,所以就会歇斯底里地陷入怀疑的深渊。

  和M见面聊天,娴觉得自己很快乐。在经历了几次不成功的恋爱之后,她仔细地玩味着和M的相处模式,为何和这个异性友人的关系是长久而快乐的?

  娴和M相识多年,关系有点微妙:不是情人,哪怕单独相处也不会有肉体关系,十分自在地在一起分享内心深处的感受并彼此理解;他们是朋友,但肯定比朋友的情谊要多一点,深一点。他们都很忙碌,从来不刻意约会,常常过几个月才碰个面,每次见面都一见如故心有灵犀,总能捕捉到对方谈话的一些闪光点,新发现。每次说再见的时候,他们觉得被理解的愉快但并不计划和期望下次的见面,只是随缘。

  娴肯定地认为那不是爱情,没有两性间的化学吸引力,没有怦然心动,没有害羞,觉得对方是个善解人意的哥哥。这种感情很好,很纯真,很轻松,很长久,彼此对彼此没有压力。于是她突然顿悟,兴奋地打电话说:“朋友和姐妹是一辈子的,爱情却很难说……我知道了,和男友的相处也应该是这样的,没有期望值,比较容易快乐。”

  娴成熟了,但她是做不到的。所有在恋爱中的人恐怕都很难有效地控制情感的期望值。爱情就是急切任性的,占有欲强的,排他的,带刺的。

  娴的问题是因为缺乏安全感而容易怀疑爱人。她谈恋爱时最经典的三个问句就是:“你在哪?和谁在一起?干什么?”每天傍晚,这三个问号通过手机,像带电的蝙蝠,带着焦灼的等待,难耐的挂虑,将信将疑的怨气甚至是莫名的愤怒狂奔到另一个人的耳畔。

  有一次,因为没有接到对方的及时回复,娴拼命地打手机,赶到对方工作的地点,滋生了一种怀疑和打破沙锅问到底的勇气。最后证明对方很清白,她只是玩了一次捕风捉影的游戏!连她自己都郁闷地质疑:爱,到底是什么?两个人分手了,因为这样的事情发生了几次,对方的理由很简单,“既然如此怀疑我,还谈什么爱不爱的?如果这是爱,那我实在受不了”。

  娴哭了,她常常以爱的名义痛哭悲伤,以爱的名义拍桌子,甩杯子。全因爱你,如果不爱你,才不会来管你。我们都是这样,以爱的名义伤害着爱的人。

据说对爱人的不信任也是一种动物的本性:在某些地区的松鼠,每当到了雌鼠生育的高峰期,雄鼠就紧紧地盯着雌鼠,甚至骑在它背上,生怕它和其他雄鼠暗渡陈仓;更有趣的是雄鼠还会制作一些鼠类的贞节带,将胶状的东西喷在雌鼠的私处,以作塞子之用,让别的雄性竞争者英雄无用武之地。看来这实在是一种天性:“亲爱的,我不相信你!”

  一个如此渴望爱的人,爱起来是令人窒息的,抱得越紧越恐惧失去,所以就会歇斯底里地陷入怀疑的深渊。细想起来,娴暂时并不适合恋爱,她独自身处一个城市,事业不定,经济不稳,去留难定,当她找到一个爱人的时候,那个人就是她心灵的庇护所,她疯狂地要求爱、关怀,理解,支持,陪伴,分享,金钱,时间……

  娴和M之间的情感也能够存在于爱情中,很唯美的,心有灵犀并不过多地奢求对方的情感倒也细水长流,只是那需要两个成熟并人格独立的个体。这是一种境界和认知,需要一些人生的沉淀和领悟。


轉載自聯合早報
Wednesday, April 07, 2010

shopping mode..

sparked off when one of my shoes went spoilt..
actualli i din intend to buy a new pair to replace, cos e damage is not significant such tt i still can wear it back home
but when i met ning for lunch, we saw a nice pair of shoes going at jus $10 so i jus bought..
& tt started my shoe spree..
cos i realli nid to get low heels so aft getting tt good bargain i tend to keep a look out on such lobangs
then i found not 1 but 2 more..
so end up buying 3 pair of shoes in 1 week..
guess e total damage?
less than $50!! hehe
dunno to say whether im lucky or i hav a keen eye for such deals ;p


after shoes comes clothes
okay la, i alr shop for a few clothes online from my fave Mayuki prior to my shoe spree cos e early Spring collection is good!
then by chance i pass by a shop & i was attracted by e clothes ava + e price..
before i know it, i picked up several items
total damage also less than $50 for 3 items.. haha
so u can say i walk out poorer but happier
tempted to buy more cos e items are veri reasonably priced but i know i hav to stop if not this month i can go eat grass liao..

seems like one dun nid to wait till Great S'pore Sale to snap up good buys..
as long as e stores are trying to clear stock, there's always good bargain
u jus nid to go search for them..
& e best thing is, there's no crowd! =D

but then hor, i din hav such luck on hp..
somehow e phone models im looking at are either not having promotions or reviews are jus so-so..

morale of e story: i really cannot have a shopping list!!
resolution: stop myself from straying into shops!!!



next thing is, i realise i lost 1 kg after finally fully recover from my cough.. =.="
so now im almost underweight..
haiz, when can i ever go back to my normal weight range??
but surprisingly, even though my weight has decreased, my muscle mass actualli increase which means my fats level went south!!
so right now even my fats level is not at healthy/optimal level.. dots..


even my memory is failing me..
first, i cant find certain items..
even when i try my hardest to recall, i jus cant rem e crucial moment, eg where did i place them
end up almost turning my cupboard upside down before i manage to find them..
sianz but also in a way fortunate..
but e worst is yet to be..
to think i can forget my PASSWORD!!!
OMG!!!!
up till now i still can't recall
GG.com.sg liao



moving on, let me grumble abt e weather..
aft e very dry Feb and early Mar, it has been raining almost everyday for the past 2-3 weeks..
then i realise cos its near Qing Ming..
realli reflect this phrase 清明时节雨纷纷 though until now i still dun realli understand e meaning of tt poem.. lolz
aft Qing Ming which is on Mon, it hasnt been raining ytd n today!!
pure coincidence or its jus fact?
if fact, how come its like tt??


finally a battle of mind vs heart for me..
for e 2nd time, e Bugis Guan Yin temple gave me a 下签 for e progress btw me & him..
如果知道結局會怎樣, 你會選擇現在就放棄還是繼續走下去?
若以長痛不如短痛的觀點決定喊停, 我的心在抗議。。
想要不在乎天長地久, 只在乎曾經擁有, 我的理智在吵架
想跟著感覺走卻又害怕以後承受不了又多一次的打擊
但若太小心翼翼,可能會讓這段感情烟消云散, 而那時後悔莫及也來不及了
越來越彷徨。。。
Monday, April 05, 2010

Musical Monday

Sunday, April 04, 2010

wah seh..
Hamilton qiang siah..
from e last few start position to 6th when finish..
but until now Hamilton seems to be not doing too well..
must jiayou!

then finally Vettel got his first win..
if not i think he heartache liao.. lolz
Saturday, April 03, 2010

Food For Thought

心中的一道桥

孙爱玲

彳亍歌

  每个人心中有一道桥,都必须走过去,那是岁月的桥。在桥上的人有匆匆的、有缓缓的、有彳亍而过的。卞之琳的诗说: “你在桥上看风景,看风景的人在楼上看你,明月装饰了你的窗子,你装饰了别人的梦。”每句诗中都有你,视角是相对的。如果用人生岁月来诠释,第一句的你似乎很写意,第二句你没想被人看见,这里出现了两个你,彼此看风景;第三句看到明月装饰了你或另一个“你”的窗,第四句两个“你”都装饰了别人的梦,或装饰了彼此的梦。

  然而,在岁月的桥上,未必有诗中美丽的意境,在桥上的你或许看到那看你的人,你们彼此相对,一方看你在窗里(楼上)有多好,另一方看你在窗外(桥上)有多好!或许,我们的人生都被人观望,也被人指指点点,在现实生活里,观望的人或说你在桥上做什么?还不走过去。人生的步伐匆匆,或者别人令你匆匆!

  人生的步伐或许是缓慢的,我常想缓慢的步伐是幸福的,何必匆匆。当然是跟不上潮流,也及不上时代,如果你坚持,还是可以慢慢过桥。当然这种步履不是每个人可以有,因为后面的人推上来,在桥上会被挤到桥边,小心别掉下河去。

  人生的步履或是彳亍的,走走停停,能停下来看风景,写首诗,是幸福的。管别人怎么看你,我就是走走停停,我不能匆匆向前,或一直向前冲去,我要找寻平衡,因为我在十二宫里,我属天平,上帝说你如果失去平衡,你生存不下去。我的岁月是我写的一首彳亍歌。

  最后我要说的是我心里的独立桥。大家是否记得新加坡的独立桥曾经有四头美丽的石狮子,当年车子行人走上桥去,面对两边桥墩立着两头白色威武的石狮子,另一边也是如此,如今的石狮子何在?谁把她移走了,使得独立桥如此的寂寞!

  五六十年代的电影也曾以独立桥为背景,桥的岁月过去,桥给人的印象也模糊了,但她曾经是一座美丽的桥,独立桥比我的心更落寞!



轉載自聯合早報
Friday, April 02, 2010

choosing the days before Easter weekend to launch terrorists attack is indeed more than a coincidence ba..

& this time round its female bomber..
speechless..

personal feel, is there a need to kill each other over religion?
esp when Islam and Christianity are similar to certain extent..
heard tt e Qur'an and the old Testament are rather identical..
perhaps i jus dun understand the ferventness of some ppl into religions ba..