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Sunday, September 30, 2007


今日是我的生辰, 不知不覺又老了一嵗。。
真的很感謝我的朋友們,沒有忘記我的“大日子”。。 沒能回復所有朋友的祝福, 在此向你們說一聲多謝!

和一群經濟係的朋友去唱K, 仿佛又回到了讀書時代。。
但縂覺得每個人都變了,有一絲的疲憊, 那無言的默契也似乎減少了。。
而我也不知為何變得蠻情緒化。。
儅他們把生日蛋糕拿進房裏時, 儅我在讀着卡上的言語時, 我不禁熱淚滿眶。。
或許是我真的變了吧。。。
我們也達成了一個共識:不要再唱五月天的歌了!!
不是不好聼,而是聼多了想換一換口味。。
有人甚至悶到情願聼MP3 機。。
Hmm, 那以後我們的歌神/"S.H.E"有更多機會大展歌喉了!哈哈!!

晚上去參加燒烤會, 在玩樂中度過了一夜。。
Raymond 那天搖身一變,變成搞笑天王。。
那天的氣氛全靠他搞起來。。

心裏唯一的歉疚是沒法陪家人, 已經在心裏承諾空出一天來彌補。。 也是時候讓我全家聚一聚了。。。
















Friday, September 28, 2007

緬甸的軍人政府終于有所行動了。。
而且是震驚全世界的舉動。。
其實如果你對緬甸的歷史有一點了解的話,你甚至可以預測這反政府的示威會遭遇到這樣的下場。。
你只要看緬甸政府怎麽對待民主領袖翁山淑枝就可略知一二緬甸政府的作風。。
國際社會所指責的侵犯人權並不是蓋的。。
但這到底是一件令人遺憾的事。。
爲何世界和平, 簡簡單單的四個字, 卻幾乎是可遙不可及呢?
本是同根生,相煎何太急??
Monday, September 24, 2007

Musical Monday

Buttons
by Pussycat Dolls




[Snoop Dogg]
What it do babyboo

Yeah, little mama you lookin' good
I see you wanna play with a player from the hood
Come holla at me, you got it like that
Big, Snoop Dogg with the lead Pussycat
I show you how it go down, yeah, I wanna go down
Me and you, one on one, treat it like a showdown
You look at me and I look at you
I'm reachin' for your shirt what you want me to do

(Pussycat dolls)
I'm tellin' you to loosen up my buttons babe (Uh huh)
But you keep frontin' (Uh)
Sayin' what you gon' do to me (Uh huh)
But I see nothin' (Uh)

I'm tellin' you to loosen up my buttons babe (Uh huh)
But you keep frontin' me (Uh)
Sayin' what you gon' do to me (Uh huh)
But I see nothin' (Uh)

Typical hardly
The type i fall for
I like when the physical
Don't leave me askin' for more
I'm a sexy mama (Mama)
Who knows just how to get what I wanna (Wanna)
What I wanna do is spring this on ya (On ya)
Back up all of the things that I told ya (Told ya told ya told ya)
You've been sayin' all the right things all night long
But I can't seem to get you over here to help take this off
Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fittin' on me
And the heat comin' from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know

I'm tellin' you to loosen up my buttons babe (Uh huh)
But you keep frontin' me (Uh)
Sayin' what you gon' do to me (Uh huh)
But I see nothin' (Uh)

I'm tellin' you to loosen up my buttons babe (Uh huh)
But you keep frontin' (Uh)
Sayin' what you gon' do to me (Uh huh)
But I see nothin' (Uh)

You say you're a big boy
But I can't agree
'Cause the love you said you had
Ain't been put on me
I wonder (wonder)
If I'm just too much for you
Wonder
If my kiss don't make you just wonder (wonder)
What I got next for you
What you wanna do? (Do)

Take a chance
To recognize that this could be yours
I can see, just like most guys that your game don't please

Baby, can't you see?
How these clothes are fittin' on me
And the heat comin' from this beat
I'm about to blow
I don't think you know

I'm tellin' you to loosen up my buttons babe (Oh ohhhhhh ohh)
But you keep frontin' (Uh)
Sayin' what you gon' do to me (Oh ohhhhhh ohh)
But I see nothin' (Uh)

I'm tellin' you to loosen up my buttons babe (Uh huh)
But you keep frontin' (Uh)
Sayin' what you gon' do to me (Uh huh)
But I see nothin' (Uh)

[Snoop Dogg]
Now you can get what you want
But I need what I need
And let me tell you whats cracklacking before i proceed
I'ma show you where to put it that
PCD told me, yeah, I thought I saw a pussy cat
You roll with your big dog
y'all sexy y'all on me
Now tell me how ya feel babydoll
Ashley, Nicole
Carmiet, Jessica, Kimberly, Melody
You tellin' me

[The Pussycat Dolls]
I'm tellin' you to loosen up my buttons babe (Uh huh)
But you keep frontin' (Uh)
Sayin' what you gon' do to me (Uh huh)
But I see nothin' (Uh)

I'm tellin' you to loosen up my buttons babe (Uh huh)
But you keep frontin' (Uh)
Sayin' what you gon' do to me (Uh huh)
But I see nothin' (oh ohhhhhh ohh)

I'm tellin' you to loosen up my buttons babe (Uh huh)
But you keep frontin' (oh ohhhhhh ohh)
Sayin' what you gon' do to me (Uh huh)
But I see nothin' (Uh)

I'm tellin' you to loosen up my buttons babe (ohhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh)
But you keep frontin' (Uh)
Sayin' what you gon' do to me (Uh huh)
But I see nothin'
Saturday, September 22, 2007

在這一行所見的人款可謂不少。。

其中有一些縂用一些我連睡覺都會夢見的理由來推塘我, 可以有些創意,來點新鮮的嗎?=D
或是對我說真話也行,難道真有這麽難?

有些則是拖拉/逃避派, 我得承認我有時也會這樣但絕大多數這並不會解決問題。。 真得好像有一個萬能的“一言驚醒夢中人”。。
快刀斬亂痲, 應該成爲我得座右銘。。

而又有少數者屬於不講理型。。 口氣咄咄逼人, 但其實是理不直,氣不壯。。 不想跟他們捲入罵戰罷了,但他們就是一副得理不饒人的樣。。 存心刁難也好,看我不爽也罷, 我也撒手不管了。。

打從心裏佩服在這行打滾多年的人。。
凡事最好笑一笑,往事隨風飄。。
Friday, September 21, 2007

finally DBS acknowledge something which i knew long ago...
that it made a mistake in my Cap$ balance..
cant believe it took close to a month to resolve..

wat happen is that i knew i have close to Cap$15 (aka $15) to offset my purchases but when i did (late last mth), e cashier claim that my balance is onli $8!
Not willing to let e $7 which i've accumulated so painstakingly onli to be wiped out, i called DBS hotline..
Wat e operator told me almost make me flip..
this $7 was accumulated in early Aug last yr so it has expired.
who are they kidding cos i remember super clearly that i onli have a balance of around $6 in early May this yr!!!
lucky i got keep all my receipts from last May (yes, i know im quite out of my mind) and mailed all e relevant receipts to e operator.. good thing that im not as much a spendthrift last yr as i am now.. if not i confirm will be pulling my hair out from all e searching and pasting.. lol..
glad that all is over & super appreciative of e operator...
cos at times im quite fed up and kinda directed this mood to e operator..
looking from another angle, at least there's something good that come out from this incident.

BUT now im quite wary of DBS n to some extent, such program alr..
how come they can commit such a serious mistake?!?!
all e more unforgiveable cos everything is computerised leh..
if i din know how much i have in e 1st place or din have e receipts to prove myself, i wonder wat will happen....
wonder if there are cases where customer forget how much is in e balance cos he/she got too mani cards hence too mani such rewards program and get 'ripped off' due to some cause-not-known mistakes..
& after so much hassle i went thro, they din compensate me anything extra...

i just hope the records of other banks are good cos i alr set my sights on 2 other banks' CC and jus waiting to get to Tax Assessment to apply for them.. =D
Monday, September 17, 2007

Musical Monday

思念是一种病
张震岳

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
一辈子有多少的来不及
发现已经失去
最重要的东西
恍然大悟早已远去
为何总是在犯错之后
才肯相信错的是自己
他们说这就是人生
试著体会
试著忍住眼泪
还是躲不开应该有的情绪
我不会奢求世界停止转动
我知道逃避一点都没有用
只是这段时间里尤其在夜里
还是会想起难忘的事情
我想我的思念是一种病
久久不能痊愈

当你在穿山越岭的另一边
我在孤独的路上没有尽头
时常感觉你在耳后的呼吸
却未曾感觉你在心口的鼻息
汲汲营营
忘记身边的人需要爱和关心
藉口总是拉远了距离
不知不觉无声无息
我们总是在抱怨事与愿违
却不愿意回头看看自己
想想自己到底做了甚黱蠢事情
也许是上帝给我一个试炼
只是这伤口需要花点时间
只是会想念过去的一切
那些人事物会离我远去
而我们终究也会远离
变成回忆

oh 思念是一种病
oh 思念是一种病一种病

多久没有说我爱你
多久没有拥抱你所爱的人
当这个世界不在那么美好
只有爱可以让他更好
我相信一切都来得及
别管那些纷纷扰扰
别让不开心的事停下了脚步
就怕你不说就怕你不做
别让遗憾继续
一切都来得及
Sunday, September 16, 2007

There are 2 types of players.
Those who control and went on to win and those who do not.

早上訓練時看了一部關於高爾夫球的片子。
以上那兩句是從裏面學來的。

其實我個人認爲沒有什麽比看一部關於運動的片子更振奮人心吧。。
因爲,
有誰不想飛上枝頭儅鳳凰?
有誰沒有未實現的夢想?
又有誰對自己的現狀沒有不滿之処?
所以儅有代表自己的人物(主角)出現時,從主角裏看到人生美好的一面,也在裏頭看到自己的影子,自己的渴望,所以更加感同身受吧。。

但問題也來了,儅主角有一大群支持者全力支持他時 (也借此實現自己的夢想/願望時),期望因此而生,這也無形中造成了壓力。
要怎麽輸導這壓力,就要看主角怎麽化壓力為動力了。。
這其實也適用于現實生活上。。
有多少人因壓力而表現失常/ 大失水准, 甚至想不開而自尋短見?
所以那些最後的贏家是those who control and went on to win!

這部片子也讓我聯想到了另一個問題:chase the dream or bring home the bacon?
不是麵包或愛情的訣擇, 而是關係到人生的方向。。
其實我現時也在這個十字路口徘徊。。。
Monday, September 10, 2007

Musical Monday

一个人生活
林凡

叶子在窗外轻轻摇动
人行道没有行人走过
镜子里的我很不像我
自从你离开了我变得很软弱
你的影子在每一个角落
好像是在提醒着我
少了你的陪伴我现在有多寂寞

我想我可以习惯一个人生活
我想我可以假装不曾爱过
冰凉的夜里让眼泪温热我
感觉如果要走谁能说 NO
我想我可以习惯一个人生活
在记忆里面擦去你的承诺
爱情怎么会是这个结果
爱情是个梦而我睡过头
Sunday, September 09, 2007

今天給“老師”寫了一封信。。
不知不覺就用華文寫了一篇接近散文的信。。
幸好“老師”是華人。。 =D
雖然跟以前比起來,我的華文程度還差一截, 但感覺上還挺詩情畫意的。。 哈。。
不知該說我有墨水還是多愁善感。。
希望“老師”不要被嚇倒, 原來我還可以是這麽悲觀的。。
有時真的覺得鏡子裏的我很不像我。。
雖然外表沒有多大的變化, 但終究是變了。。
尤其是我的眼神吧,有人曾跟我說過有一縷縷擦不去的憂鬱。。
不好,我又想哭了。。

今天終于有機會帶媽出去吃一頓好的。。
但爸卻得去做工, 錯失了全家一起聚餐的機會。。
心裏總是覺得很虧欠倆老, 到現在還沒有自力更生, 也還沒有好好孝順他們。。
看到他們倆已經逐漸滿頭白髮, 卻難得有機會好好享受人生,我就一陣心酸。。
雖然他們嘴上不說,但我知道他們倆心裏在想什麽。。
但怎麽辦, 我心中的那把火, 我的那份渴望,我的意志力正在逐漸消退。。。
我又好想逃到一個無人的地方獨自哭泣了。。
Wednesday, September 05, 2007

good to be back in NUS..

not for lessons but for appts..

but i dun mind, at least i can go explore the new Arts canteen, heez..
now arts canteen realli looks spacious.. but also gives me e feeling of a normal food court, like nothing special.. how come ar?

then my hangout upgrade to Econs Grad Room alr.. lol.. thanks to ZL..
have e urge to go inside Econs Hons Rm but decide not to.. pai seh.. haha..
but surprise! the room is empty after 6.30pm..
so unlike our time last yr..
not much change from e time i last enter... but jus wondering when will e new chairs n tables arrive as OED has told us.. its been months alr leh..

& ZL seems very stressed up..
he even more tense up now than during macro..
like to help him out but 愛莫能助。。
so can only offer encouragement..
家家真的有一本難念的經。。
Monday, September 03, 2007

Musical Monday

西界
林俊杰




阳光越过窗沿
我在阴影里面
才过正午13点
就漆黑一片
没有人看得见
我心深处的阴暗面

只能眺望东边
你的世界太远
撑到想象的极限
幸福有多甜
可黑夜已吞噬我
就是拉不到你的手

因为我活在西边
只拥有半个白天
一到午后夜色就蔓延
虽然和你面对面
却看不到我的脸
感觉到你不安的视线

在西界的那一边
只能有半个白天
暗自祈祷上天的垂怜
在长夜的边缘
给我一丝光线
让你 能多看我一眼

只能眺望东边
你的世界太远
撑到想象的极限
幸福有多甜
可黑夜已吞噬我
就是拉不到你的手

因为我活在西边
只拥有半个白天
一到午后夜色就蔓延
虽然和你面对面
却看不到我的脸
感觉到你不安的视线

在西界的那一边
只能有半个白天
暗自祈祷上天的垂怜
在长夜的边缘
给我一丝光线
让你 能多看我一眼

因为我活在西边
只拥有半个白天
一到午后夜色就蔓延
虽然和你面对面
看不到我的脸
感觉到你不安的视线
暗自祈祷上天的垂怜
在长夜的边缘
给我一丝光线
让你 能多看我一眼
Sunday, September 02, 2007

finally get to see e econs ppl again.. ever since... clubbing?

now econs hons grp activity has drop to zero liao... so sad..
if not for kheng lee's housewarming, i think there wont be a chance for us to meet up agn...
perhaps during my intended i-treat-ktv-session at e end of e mth ba.. but not confirmed yet so dun get too excited.. lol..

anyway feel super apologetic to KL...
first, din get him a decent gift..
2nd, was super late for his housewarming...
must make up for it later on...

realli pei fu e econs early birds, manage to book the whole dining table to ourselves when there are close to 100 ppl attending the session..
good catching up with them..
but somehow im not as happy as i thought..
my smile protray everything...
its not smiling form e heart + i looked tired in our grp photo..

does tt gives a hint of my physical n mental state?
perhaps i shd allocate more time to myself, talk to myself n realign myself..